It has been six months...

[lanalucy]

It's hard to believe it hasn't been quite a year since Miranda had her first seizure and was diagnosed. It's been six months yesterday since Miranda died. I still think of her every day, miss her presence in my life. There are songs that came out about that time or since, and I can finally sing them without losing my voice to tears, but her absence is still an ache in the center of me. I can't even imagine how her mother feels, but I know that without her, my world is not quite as wonderful as it was before.

Her mom has stayed involved with our Girl Scout stuff, but very much on the periphery, so it's just been me and Kid doing GS stuff, selling cookies, pretending to have meetings...I think unless we can get some more girls and have a troop again next year, this'll be it for us. I'll have to get my GS cookies second-hand and won't that suck.

Comments

[merricatk.livejournal.com]

You have all my sympathy, sweetie. It's so hard living an "after" life, marking everything by whether it happened before or after the loss.

Take care of yourself.