Strange...

[lanalucy]

I have this weird recurring dream theme that stars a former boss.  It's never the same dream, but the premise is always the same.  She needs something done with her house, preparatory to moving out of it, and though she doesn't like me and doesn't want to see me, she always calls me to do whatever it is.  And likewise, though I don't want to see her, I always go when she calls.  Then we always get along and I do whatever it is, and she leaves me alone in the house, and I wake up and wonder what the frak that is about.

This boss and I were freakishly similar and got along marvelously well (I mean shoe sizes, clothing choices, TV and movie likes/dislikes, pretty much everything except politics), until the very end after her husband died.  I can and do accept that people process grief in different ways, and I was handy, so she threw all her anger at me and then cut me out of her life.  I just kinda wish that my brain would finish processing whatever it is, because the dreams are always unsettling, and my life is unsettled enough.

On the other hand, last night, I broke my week-plus streak of waking up before 08:30, regardless of what time I went to sleep.  It was glorious to wake up and look at my little clock and see 10:18.  I even smiled.  Then I went back to sleep with a smile on my face.  lol